Every time I think I've figured myself out, I throw myself for a loop... I'm a tricky son-of-a-bitch. I was so sure for the past couple months that I was going to be a teacher. I started the semester thinking, "Hey, teaching! That's something I would probably be good at and enjoy!" And that's been my mindset for the majority of the semester. I thought I had it. That was the longest time I've ever been sure about anything! ...and then my personality happened.
I was looking for classes for this upcoming semester, and I started going through the Journalism stuff. Now, to be fair, Journalism is something I have a bit of history in. When I graduated high school I even briefly considered studying journalism, and during high school I wrote for our school paper for two years. I was even an editor during my final semester. Journalism has always been something that has interested me, but that's pretty much true of any of the majors I considered.
I think my main problem is that, no matter what I do, I romanticize the career I think I want to have. But after actually chasing that career in the form of school, and thinking it over, I realize the reality is so much less than what I hoped for. When I think of journalism I imagine tough, exciting, undercover work and investigative reporting, when the reality is most reporting is fluff, especially on a local level. Hard-hitting stories are much more difficult to find than my imagination lets me run away with.
But this realization, mixed with some other facets of my life, have me coming to a greater realization than I'm losing my "head-in-the-clouds" mentality. My feet are beginning to touch the ground, and I think I'm okay with that. Even more so, I think I need that. I'm going to miss the view from up there, but it'll be good to have some down-to-earth perspective. So now, it's a matter of actually taking a long, hard look at the things in my life I'm clinging to due to my romantic nature and evaluating what purpose they actually have in my life.
I need to figure out what my major is. I need to evaluate what I've chosen carefully, and then file the paper-work for that major. Just to cement it in not just my own head, but in the great, wide world of academia. Even if I do change my major at some later point, the fact that I had chosen a major, officially, at least once before will constantly be on record. Maybe it'll motivate me.
"Timmy Snow reporting", does have a nice ring to it though, right?
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